Welcome to my page for expressing my
personal feelings of queer pride along with
some tid-bits of local Cincinnati LGBTQIA history...
My Personal Pride
I was raised going to a Baptist church every Sunday, learning about the Bible and all that, even going to Vacation Bible School in Summer 2016.
I remember when I was 4 or 5, I tried wearing one of my Mom's purses and got in trouble for it.. (i now realize that from 3 to 12 years old i had a lot of trauma)
Anyways.. as I grew up, the teachings of my parents and the church made me uncomfortable around queer people and even slighty homophobic.
(I now absoulutely hate myself for being this way, even though faith is an extremely strong influence for a child, I will never excuse that time in my life)
In April 2024.. I, along with millions of other people, heard of Chappell Roan for the first time.
I immediately hated her. A friend had told me she made music for gay people so I had absoulutley no interest, not even giving it a chance.
Fastforward to the 2025 GRAMMYS. That night, me and friend were scoffing at how terrible all the music was (the only thing we liked was Jimmy Carter winning a GRAMMY)
By February of 2025, I had begun listening to Doechii, and was just letting YT Music play anything it wanted for me... and I heard Pink Pony Club. (my jaw dropped)
On the night of February 7th I downloaded The Rise and Fall of a Midwest Princess and Good Luck Babe for my iPod Nano. (RIP)
I remember crying that night.. the next morning I made a mashup of Hot To Go and DARE (it was awful but i was just so excited about this music and had to make something)
I probably started questioning my identity around April, coming to the conclusion that I was Aceflux.. but then in mid-May I started questioning myself again..
"am i.. trans?" "shit."
My parents (Dad mainly) aren't hugefans of trans folks. (they believe the misconception that all trans people are pedos..)
So that realization scared the everloving shit out of me..
But I didn't have time for that.. it was May 31st! My first time experiencing a Chappell concert in real time!
(i was already a massive fan by this point, starting to archive anything i could find.. and yet i still havent seen her live) (T_T)
an exerpt from my July 7th diary entry:
"i think i really wanna be trans but not fully like with the estrogen and stuff, also i really like the idea of being lesbian"
By this point I had started subtly dressing more feminine.. (bracelets and putting my hair in a ponytail, also considering the idea of doing drag)
I don't have an exact date for this... but I'd say around mid August I discovered the concept of a Non-Binary Lesbain.
(i was always under the assumption that a non-binary couldn't be gay because they weren't any gender.)
But now.. as of writing this.. I still think of myself as...
I'm kinda in the middle of both genders, but fem leaning, and I'm attracted to women.
Non-Binary Lesbian, Enby-Dyke, Rat/They/Her
